And considering how many of us infertiles have studied up on very early pregnancy symptoms in the desperate hope that we can manufacture them into being, I'm very shy to say that I'm having pregnancy symptoms so early.
But I am.
I'm 10dp5dt or 15dpo.
I'm tired. I took a nap today which I haven't done in quite a while. Maybe it's because my Starbucks was decaf, but I don't think that was the only factor.
I'm spacey as all get out. I'm only half aware of what's going on around me, and my social filter is just completely off. I realize halfway through a sentence that what I'm saying is of no interest or relevance to the person I'm randomly blathering at.
My stomach is heavy. Especially when laying on my side. It feels like it's being unnaturally pulled towards the bed.
When I stand up, there's something pinched in my abdomen that kind of hurts as it restretches itself out.
Starting to get a little bit nauseous at night. It's not horrible, just like a light car sickness. I didn't puke at all with my girls so I'm really surprised to have any nausea hitting me this early. I slept with my hair back in braids last night and a bucket bedside in case of sudden pukage.
I'm cold. I never get cold but now I'm cold and huddling up under the covers at night.
I'm irritable. K is a wonderful guy, but he kind of sucks at telling stories. He focuses on pointless details at the beginning of the story, pausing to try to remember them, and 5 minutes in, I'm still waiting to get to the meat of what it is he's telling me about. I've really been snapping at him today when he does this, and other times too. I'm not being very nice.
The boobs are a little sore, if I push them around to see if they're sore. But since I never really push them around when I don't think I'm pregnant, I don't know if they're more sore than usual, or if they just don't like being pushed around.
I'm friggin hungry. I normally snack all day and never really feel hungry, but I'm really feeling it now. I woke up just starving this morning. And all of my meals are about double in size what I would normally eat.
- Food tip 1 - get a whole bunch of protein bite type foods. We got beef jerky, pepperoni sticks (yes, I'm allowed to eat these), baby bell cheeses, mozzarella whips, stuff like that. Cuz when I'm HUNGRY, I ain't wasting time cooking, I just need to grab and eat.
- Food tip 2 - when you do make a dinner, make enough for a lot of leftovers. A serving of casserole hits the spot just right in that new meal you have to eat between lunch and dinner.
Guys, I'm feeling more pregnant, much earlier, than I did with the girls. I'm actually starting to get really nervous that I might have more than 2 in here and I might have to make some hard decisions. I can't carry more than 2. We already know that I'm almost certainly going to get gestational diabetes. And a healthy pregnancy with more than twins is so rare, I just can't handle the risks. Please pray to whatever you believe in to give me 2 healthy fetuses and if there are more at the moment, to please have nature make the decision for me naturally before I know of their existence via ultrasound.