My Story

The chronicle of the journey from infertility, to miscarriage, to finally raising twin girls born in June 2012.

Thursday, November 17, 2011

First Time Twins, Take 2

We found the source of the spotting.  Under a gestational sac there was a little tear.  Apparently something about as the placenta entrenches itself and grows, it sometimes tears a little bit of the lining, or something like that.

Honestly, I missed some of the finer details of the explanation.  I was a little busy reacting to seeing 2 gestational sacs with yolks and fetal poles, firmly attached, and currently at the right size.

Apparently those little tears and thus a little bit of spotting is more common with twins.  We don't know if they are identical or fraternal, but each has it's own individual sac which is a really good thing.

In six days when I go to my regularly scheduled ultrasound and we can see the heartbeats, dancing in the streets shall commence.  Right now, I'm just kind of shaky.  A little bit of coming down from fear, and a little bit of being elated at twins again.

I'm almost ashamed of myself for being SOOOOOOOOO fortunate to get this kind of lightening strikes twice do-over when so many others are struggling.  I feel like a Survivor contestant who's won a reward and gets to pig out on all sorts of goodies in front of the other starving contestants.  I'm thrilled for me, and just so sorry that I can't spread the wealth around.

Well, for the moment, it looks like this blog will be able to fulfill its original purpose - to document becoming parents for the first time to twins.  Please, let me get it right this time.


  1. So glad to hear it turned out to be nothing major..spotting is no fun. But yay for twins! Hope everything continues growing good and stays in place!

  2. YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    I just had to de-lurk myself to say that, I'm so happy for you :) I've been checking out your blog since seeing the link on the loss board on BBC and I'm a fellow pacific NW'er. My *everything* is crossed and many prayers going up that this blog does fulfill it's purpose and there are many more chances for me to de-lurk to say YAY!

  3. I have to say, "I told you so". I knew it was just a tear. Glad to hear it was only that too. Lucky wench...twins. Okay you are going to have to post belly and ultrasound photos before xmas is over. I want to see!

  4. Holy crap. I haven't checked in for a few days & this is amazing news! Congratulations. I honestly just fist pumped like at the end of breakfast club on your behalf.

    You truly give me hope!!!

    Melissa in Boston

  5. YAY! God, all the way home I was thinking, "What if it's not twins?" I'm so thrilled for you. I had a similar thing happen with Aliya at 7w2d and I leaked a lot. My RE called it a "maternal bleed" and implied I'd popped a vessel with my ever expanding blood volume, but his actual chart notes said moderate placental abruption (didn't find that out until after 12 weeks). She also had a slight placenta previa which contributed to that, but it had resolved by the time of our loss.

    I'm so thrilled for you and have everythign crossed that your beans stick. Please send some of your babydust/luck my way for December...

  6. Woohoo! Congrats on the twins! I hope the bleeding goes away for another 7-8 months very soon.

  7. GAH!!! YIPPEE!!!! And you know what? You have EVERY right to be excited and beaming about twins. You've been through a lot. :)

  8. WOW I read both of those posts back to back... I am so relieved for you!!!! And excited to hear that it's twins again! I hope to continue hearing good news on this blog. :)

  9. Am new to your blog. Congrats for the twins. I pray everything works out well for you this time and you bring your healthy babies home.

  10. Whew! I had a scary bleed with my twins at 10 weeks and they did say it was fairly common w twins. I hope that this is the last scare you experience during this pregnancy.

    You don't have any reason to feel 'survivor's guilt' (although almost all of us IF survivors do in one way or another). You have gone through more than your share of suffering. Personally, I'm scared sh*tless of another set of multiples, so you keep pigging out at that banquet, twin mamma ;)

  11. So SO excited for you! Hoping and praying you get your happy ending this time!


  12. WOW! That is awesome! Congrats!


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