I've been weeping for the last 10 minutes or so. I can't help it.
I know that I don't have proof yet. I know that I can't get my heart set on anything. But the numbers are the same. I felt 2 distinct hard twinges, 12 hours apart during the implantation period, in different quadrants.
And I just can't get over the fact that it feels like I'm getting what I've so desperately wanted for the last 10 months.
I feel like I'm getting a do-over.
Isn't that exactly what every miscarriage mama wants more than anything else in life? A do-over? And I thought I could never feel like I had one because a twin pregnancy is so rare, mine would be the first in my family, that I would never truly get one. I might get another pregnancy, I might eventually have 2 kids, but I wouldn't actually get a do-over.
And I'm just so overwhelmed. The numbers are just too exactly the same.
I don't know how long until the shoe drops. But at this moment, I'm so grateful, and feeling unworthy of an opportunity like this.