Today was a big day for me. I really wanted a certain number to come up because it would give me more hope that twins were a reasonable possibility.
Let's review. In my twin pregnancy, my numbers look like this:
9dp5dt = 266
11dp5dt = 600 something
13dp5dt = 1500 something
Unfortunately, I had some commitments yesterday so I wasn't able to get a blood draw and really look apples to apples at the numbers. So, kind of figuring out the math, I kind of figured that 12dp5dt should be somewhere around 1,000 to be consistent with last time. So for direct comparison, here are the numbers so far for this pregnancy:
9dp5dt = 265
12dp5dt = 1038
Gee, that's pretty much EXACTLY in line with my twins, no?
And now I enter another 2ww where I simply have to trust that things are going as they are supposed to be going. No more official updates until my 7 week ultrasound. I really wish I could keep getting betas, or get ultrasounds earlier, just SOMETHING to check in with how things are going every couple of days.
My 7 week day actually falls on Thanksgiving and it's no surprise that they don't do anything at the clinic that is not absolutely necessary to do that day. So I will be getting my ultrasound the day before Thanksgiving. I thought that was awesome but as I'm writing this, I'm reconsidering. Of course I'm hoping that I'll see 2 heartbeats and thus have wonderful news to share at Thanksgiving dinner.
But now that I'm realizing how arrogant that thinking was (of course it will be great news to share!), it now occurs to me that it might mean I have devastating news that could ruin the holiday. What if there are no heartbeats? I sure ruined Christmas last year, am I going to ruin Thanksgiving this year? Holidays are not my friends.
For the moment, I've got exactly what I want. Please, please, please, let me continue to be able to say that for the next 8 months!