And I really hate what it's become. This blog was started to document the experiences of first time parents raising twins. Instead, it's now a miscarriage and infertility blog. This is not the story I wanted to be writing, and certainly not the story I wanted to be living.
One year ago, I was marveling at the fact that I had twins in the tummy. Today, I got my blood drawn, a wand up in my bits to look at my ovaries and I'm expecting 2 injections of medication tonight. I was supposed to be changing diapers when my blog hit one year old, not figuring out medication dosages.
I'm also finding myself gearing up to be more politically active. I never wanted to be politically active. I used to hardly ever watch the news. But now, the republicans are trying to pass so many laws to restrict what a woman can do with her body, and it's really becoming personal.
The house just passed a bill that says that a hospital can refuse abortion services, even in emergency situations where the mothers life is in danger. And all of the anti-abortion people are all happy pappy as if women are being all la-de-da about these decisions.
If this bill were in effect, I would be dead today. If that law that the Georgia representative proposed earlier this year had been in effect, I would either be dead, or me and my doctor would be on death row for double homicide.
How can I not take it personally that an entire political party wants me dead? I'm the person that they are trying to kill, in several different directions. I'm not some slut who can't keep her legs closed, I'm a mom desperately trying to bring my children into this world. If abortion procedures were not available, be it for financial reasons, moral reasons, or there was no doctor in the area who had the skills and knowledge to perform such procedures, I would be dead.
What sin have I committed to make these people want to kill me?
When I have the energy to do anything other than try to create babies, here are the causes I intend to become active in:
- Doctors must perform any tests requested by a mother who has miscarried after her first miscarriage. They should not be able to refuse these tests until after the 3rd consecutive miscarriage.
- Abortion procedures, and doctors skilled in such procedures must be available in all emergency medical facilities.
- Adoption needs to become a viable option for infertile couples. The costs associated with it and the procedural turmoil currently make it a very prohibitive option.
- Any health insurance plan that covers Viagra must also cover infertility treatments. Treating infertility must be designated as a necessary medical procedure.
I could go on, but I think focusing my energy on those four will spread me quite thin enough.