My Story

The chronicle of the journey from infertility, to miscarriage, to finally raising twin girls born in June 2012.

Friday, September 16, 2011

Aunt Flow that Fickle Foe

Guess who came for a visit today!

Yes, my body has once again shunned all schedules and logic and decided to bleed in the middle of a provera regime designed to induce said period.

But I'm actually excited.  It's weird.  Maybe I just had too much caffeine this morning, but as soon as I discovered that my cycle had started, I got butterflies in my stomach and an actual "this is gonna happen!" feeling.

With my history, I'm afraid to express any hope or positive feelings out loud so I won't, cuz every time I actually feel like I'm finally going to have a family, it's taken away from me again.  So.......I'm completely pessimistic about this cycle *squee!*, not gonna happen *hehe!*, no really, this is gonna be a total bust *OMG!*

I'm also nervous that for some reason, since I was only on day 4 of provera, for some reason AF showing up at the wrong time will prevent this from actually happening somehow.  Half expecting a phone call tomorrow saying "nope, the provera is a bad start so we'll have to wait another cycle."

Approximate final date of weigh-in (at suppression check) - October 4
Weight today - 233.9lbs
Goal weight - 232.5

This can so happen!   Oh wait, can't have hope, that jinxes it.  Scratch that.  This is totally gonna suck!

1 comment:

  1. :-) Yes, this is totally gonna suck!
    Don't freak out about the provera. Sometimes you don't need a full dose to kickstart the biyatch. Last time I took it, a couple of years back, it only took three pills to make the red lady arrive.
    So - wait, can I wish you luck or will that be jinxing it?
    Ok - not taking any chances!


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