My Story

The chronicle of the journey from infertility, to miscarriage, to finally raising twin girls born in June 2012.

Tuesday, September 6, 2011

One year ago today

For the first time in my life, I saw a second line on a pregnancy test.  It was really, really faint, but it was there.

Throughout my 20's and early 30's, I took a pregnancy test every 2-3 months if I was sexually active.  Because of the PCOS, I can easily go 8-12 months without a period.  Therefore, if I did get pregnant, I would have no natural indicators to tell me so.  A skipped period wouldn't be noticed because for me, not skipping a period is what's odd.

And I was on depression medications that would be harmful to a fetus.  So I tested every couple of months just to ensure that I wasn't harming someone by taking my medication every day.

Oh, and can I just mention how much money I spent that I didn't need to spend on those pregnancy tests?  I had no idea that Wondfo tests existed.  That I could get them in bulk, for about a quarter a piece.  Nope, I was buying them at the drugstore in those three test packs.

Every test for more than a decade screamed at me that I wasn't pregnant.  That there was no chance, no worries, goodbye.  But one year ago today, I peed on a stick, and I squinted, and there was that hint of a magical second line.  The next day, it was there, no mistaking it.

One year ago today, I learned that my long term belief that my body could never get pregnant was wrong.

1 comment:

  1. I would love to know what that is like :) To pee on a stick and know you're pregnant instead of getting a call from a nurse. Either way, it is probably the purest happiness I've felt that I can remember. Thank you for sharing a memory.


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