My Story

The chronicle of the journey from infertility, to miscarriage, to finally raising twin girls born in June 2012.

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Yay! Argh!

Here's the Yay - Spot has been found alive and well!  The cougar didn't get him, he got trapped under the neighbors house when they were setting rat traps.  She heard him meowing last night, checked this morning, and came over to tell K that he's been found.  A whole lot of dust and cobwebs and a can of food later and Spot is running around the neighborhood as he should be!

Here's the argh.  I weighed myself last night.  245.5.  Cried for an hour or so.  I'm eating less than 1,000 calories per day and my weight is bouncing back up instead of pushing down.  I think that 241.2 was as low as it's going to bounce and that's not good enough.  So we might not get to do this cycle.  This morning, 244.5.  I've only got 12 days to get it to 240. 

I'm miserable because I'm eating so little and I'm terrified because I'm not getting the results I need.  I'm practically back to where I started even though I haven't eaten anything.

K recommended we donate a pint of blood the morning of weigh-in.  That outta be a pound or so.  Yes, I'm actually considering it as a viable option.


  1. I hate to say it, but if you are eating less than 1000 calories a day, your body is probably going into freak-out/starvation mode, and it going to hang on to everything like crazy. Eat woman! At least a little bit more, k? Best of luck. Dieting sucks - hang in there!

  2. I agree w anonymous. There are a lot of tricks that jockeys use to lower weight to get them on a horse, but you don't want to do them. However, if you have a sauna handy, a good sweat will help you lose water weight quickly. :( I've got everything crossed for you. I believe that the power of the cougar won't let you down!

  3. Hi, stopping by from ICLW. So sorry you are having to go through this. I know stress doesn't help my weight at all. I hope it works out for you!

  4. Yay for finding Spot! Sorry the pounds aren't coming off like they should be, but there is still time for you to make your goal.

  5. Glad you got your cat back. You should be able to still hit your goal. Don't do the blood donation thing btw. If it's anything like here, they go through your medical records and won't let you donate if you're about to go through a cycle. I tried once and ended up being completely upset that I couldn't - it was just another thing to feel bad about!

  6. Thanks for the comment on my blog and the advice. I appreciate it. I'm sorry to hear that things aren't going as you had hoped. I agree with what the other folks said that from what i know, eating too little will actually give you the opposite results of what you would like. I wish I had some kind of a trick for you. You're in my thoughts though and I hope you get to where you need to be. Hang in there!

    ICLW #20

  7. You've thrown your body into survival mode right now-it has no idea when its going to get its next meal so it is storing everything it can as fat. You gotta stop starving your body. 6 small meals spaced out every couple hours.
    You have ample days to go to a book store and pick up 6 day body make over by michael thurmond-just the basic paper back book.
    Take the test in the car to find out what body type you are-hit the grocery store on your way home, and stick to the foods you are allowed to eat in the quantities the book outlines. No salt, no crap-just healthy clean proteins complex carbs and lots of veggies/some fruits.
    Stick to that plan for 12 days and you will be under 40 bmi in time. Want to be an over achiever, stick to the diet for 12 days and walk 30-45 minutes a day.

    Keep up with this starvation thing and you'll crash!
    Good luck!

  8. @brooke
    I know my body is in survival mode. But I am following some of this advice. I'm focusing on getting the few calories that I'm getting mostly from proteins and several times throughout the day. Shrimp cocktails, those 90 calorie lunch meat packs, a slimfast shake from time to time, a lot of stir-fries with chicken and veggies. Hubby is a three meal a day kind of guy whereas I'm a small portion constant snacker. The fridge is filled with fat texture substitutes like quacamole, bean dip, and a whole lotta water. I'm a horrible exerciser but I'm treadmilling at a slow pace once or twice a day for 15-20 minutes at a time. But that's all I'm able to manage cuz exercise and I really don't get along.


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