After our good news doctors appointment, K and I are thinking that we need to start accepting that we have to plan for these children and not just fantasize about them.
We talked last night and we're both pretty much in the same place. We are being urged forward, but still holding ourselves back. I think we're going to have to drag ourselves across that initial threshold of acceptance and once we get through that discomfort, we might be able to start enjoying the pregnancy a little bit.
So for the next 2 weeks, we're in dragging mode. Kind of forcing ourselves to start doing stuff, even though we don't want to do it. After that, we'll hit 24 weeks, we'll have kind of gone through the work of figuring out WHAT we need to do, and we're hoping that the emotional resistance will be broken down so we can start actually doing it.
Todays achievements - we solidified the names. We knew we still liked Charlotte, but I wasn't really loving the name Christina anymore. But K wants both of his girls back so he really wants to stick with Christina. He rarely expresses an opinion so when he does, I generally go with it. So we've officially decided that we're sticking with Charlotte and Christina.
We've also decided on middle names but I don't want identity thieves to use the info on this blog to use my girls names and eventual birth date to mess up their finances so I'll keep at least that to myself.
I've called my sister in law and she's sending me lists of what a new mom needs (in her experienced opinion) and what they'll be handing down. K's parents have asked if they can buy us a double stroller and I'm perfectly happy to accept that as a gift. That is one of those purchases that I could agonize over forever, trying to factor in every little detail from the size of our car trunk that it will have to fit in, to door size, to maneuverability, etc etc etc. But if someone gives it to me as a gift, I can simply be grateful and if it's not the perfect choice, it won't bother me too much because I won't be kicking myself that I should have chosen something else.
The maternity clothes I bought have arrived, but only 1 shirt fits. The rest will have to go back and I'll either get a refund or exchange them for larger sizes.
We were at Fred Meyer today and I got myself a short sleeved shirt that has a snap down front. It fits me as I am at the moment, so I'm hoping it will fit me after I give birth. Most of my wardrobe is tshirt style that is just one piece, so it won't really work for breastfeeding. I'm keeping my eye out for shirts like this with easy boob access and picking them up here and there as I find them. My mom is also good at sewing so I might go through my wardrobe and see what shirts can be sliced up the middle and given a zipper.
Next things to do - clean out the nursery and take stock of what we've already inherited. I suspect our first furniture purchase will be a used dresser from somewhere so we can start putting clothes away.