My Story

The chronicle of the journey from infertility, to miscarriage, to finally raising twin girls born in June 2012.

Thursday, July 5, 2012

I'm holding a baby

I'd like to be doing some other things right now, but I'm holding a baby.  Baby who does not wish to be fed, have a diaper changed, or be asleep will only stop crying if I hold the baby.  So, I'm holding the baby.

It's ok right now at a reasonable time of the evening.  Dishes can wait.  I don't really need to fold laundry right this minute.  It's when we decide to play this game at 3am that it gets really old.  We don't co-sleep and were told over and over again that it's unsafe to fall asleep while holding a baby, no matter how secure the position may be, so at 3am when being awake is a struggle, holding a baby who simply doesn't want anything else, not as much fun as it sounds.

Ok, baby has been asleep in my elbow for over 10 minutes now.  I'm going to put the baby down in the bassinet.

1 minute and still appears to be sleeping peacefully.

5 minutes and she's getting noisy again.

It's going to be a long night.


  1. I have two week old twins and completely feel your pain... That's why it's 3:30am and I'm writing this. Good luck!

  2. Can you put them in a carrier when they're that small? That's part of the reason I want to get a soft warp-style carrier - when they insist on being held, I could potentially hold them and do something else at the same time. I mean I guess you can at least play on your phone while you sit there with a quiet baby!

  3. Yep, I'm feeling it too. My 3 week old would quite happily use my chest as her bed instead of her lovely crib with organic sheets...

    I watch the tv on a low volume whilst the feeding/changing/rocking takes place. It beats staring at the wall. I'm working my way through various boxsets.

    Hang in there. It'll get better.


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