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The chronicle of the journey from infertility, to miscarriage, to finally raising twin girls born in June 2012.

Tuesday, January 1, 2013

Mommy Amnesia

So we said goodbye to 2012 and hello to 2013!

Last night I was thinking about the girls and going all giddy with "best year ever!!!" when I took a step back and thought "wait a minute, I'm happy now, but most of the year actually sucked."

Somehow, I've been granted that Mom amnesia where the happiness of your children takes over and you forget how miserable you were getting those children.  I forgot that a year ago, I was in the ER with projectile bleeding, talking with K about what our next steps would be if I weren't pregnant anymore.  I forgot that everything about the pregnancy was scary and uncomfortable and icky.  I forgot that the first few months of my girls life, I was in a miserable spiral of depression, exhaustion, and sobbing.  Because I've actually enjoyed my girls the last couple of months, I simply forgot about how horrible it was before that.

2012 wasn't the best year ever.  10 of the 12 months were actually pretty darned awful.  But 2012 was the year that we put in all the work and difficulty and hard times so that 2013 can be the best year ever!


  1. Oh yeah, Mommy Amnesia. I talked to my cousin who also had a baby (her 3rd) at the same time we did and was like, did you remember how hard it was these first few months??? And she said, NO! Do you think I would be doing this for the THIRD TIME if I did?! Mommy Amnesia: the reason our species has not died out!

  2. I have not forgotten one minute of how hard it was having two babies :) The good news is that should you choose to have another, having a singleton after twins is the easiest thing EVER.

    Happy New Year to you! May 2013 be your best year yet!

  3. Well I'm glad that some of 2012 was good for you. All of it sucked for me.

  4. Yes, I agree with robin. If not for mommy amnesia no one would have more than one child. EVER. (Multiples being the exception, of course!)

    Sit back and enjoy that blissful mommy amnesia! :)

  5. Happy New Year Alex!.

    'tis true that we forget the horror of pregnancy/labor. I had a particularly nasty labor with my first, where pretty much everything went wrong. Afterwards, lying exhausted in my hospital bed feeling like I'd been run over, the nurse joked "you'll be back in a few years" She was wrong. I was back 15 mths later...
    How's that for amnesia.


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